Wow, I really haven’t written much since last summer and Cruel Jewel 100+ I have been journaling more, pen to paper is way more satisfying to me than typing, so when I get the chance to write, its in my little purple journal.
This summer we are in Salida CO for 6 months. The why is a longer more complicated story, but the short version is that family health issues pushed us to really live and do something wild, and knock off items from our bucket list before its too late! My bucket list was to get Drew to pace me a full 50k of High Lonesome, his are hiking several 14ers and doing the Grand Canyon Rim to Rim. Rim to Rim is planned for October, and High Lonesome happened in July.
Leading up to High Lonesome 100 I had some fantastic runs. Even if I had dropped during the race, those 9 weeks of training in some of the most beautiful high country was well worth it. Its fascinating how the body adapts. The very first day in town, after 3 days of driving from NC to CO, I felt like I needed to take the dogs out for a long “jog,” they had been SO good in the car for several days and sleeping in random hotels-they deserved a good bit of exercise. I mapped a little 4 mile, flat-in-town route, packed water for the three of us, and set out thinking NBD, we-the dogs and myself- would be fine. Four miles, all flat: piece of cake. I have no idea how the dogs felt, though they looked at me with excitement in their eyes, a new place with all new sniff smells, however, one mile in and I was starting to lose my vision around the edges. If you have ever run hard enough, or run at altitude and felt the beginings of hypoxia…I was there, .75 miles into a very slow 4 mile jog. The jog quickly turned into a run walk and 4 miles became 2.5. The next day I decided to try again, this time I didn’t get hypoxic right away, but still capped it at 4 miles and slow. I would notice every week things would get a teeny bit easier.
Then in May, for my birthday, we decided to do Mt Yale, one of Drew’s 14ers. After being in CO for 5 weeks by now, we thought we’d be ok to get up to 14,000 ft. That morning we left in the cold, dark and arrived at the trailhead just in time for sunrise and snow flurries! It was beautiful, but it was also foretelling of things to come. Around 13,000 ft we hit deep snow. We trudged up for a bit, missing the trail, finding our way back to the trail, but getting very cold. Drew had gotten hot and sweaty in the first part of the ascent, and now his wet base layer was chilling him to the bone. His fingers were numb, the snow was getting deep, and it was my birthday hike-and birthday hikes are supposed to be fun, so we paused at a big rock that didn’t have snow on it. Had fantastic birthday cookies that Aubrey made, and turned back to the start, just 500ft shy of the peak. I am 46 now, I have no ego, nothing to prove when it comes to high alpine outings, if it doesn’t look safe to summit, I am happy to turn around-no regrets.
Over the next few weeks I was able to put together some amazing training runs all above 9,000 ft. My biggest week was 90 miles with 13,000ft of climbing and about 20 hours of work. More than anything I got to experience almost every section of the course that I normally have in the dark and I got to do it feeling great! Thanks to Aubrey I got in hundreds of mountain miles, and so much exploring. I wouldn’t change my race finish if it meant any of that adventuring would need to be altered. I just feel at home here, I feel so connected to the earth and so thankful to be alive and able to experience all the wild areas on my own two feet.
I had hoped that Mhrt (Menopause hormone replacement therapy) would help me feel a bit more like myself during a 100 mile race, however, we caught RSV a few weeks before the race, so I did the best I could despite not feeling 100 percent like myself. I have been on Mhrt for about a year now, and the biggest thing I notice is that I can sleep, I was only able to sleep about 4 hours a night before going on MHRT-that was the worst year of my life-and I don’t have the joint aches. Mostly in my hip, I was born with a foot backwards and it has led to some early arthritis in one hip opposite the ankle that has some limited mobility. What it does not do, at least for me, is make me feel like I used to even 5 years ago and be able to stay awake overnight, I never ran into this problem until my eary 40s, can’t say I enjoy it.
The first half was mostly uneventful. The highest point and longest climb comes before mile 20. We hike up to 13,000+ ft to the pass just below Mt Antero (a 14,000ft peak that later Drew and I would clmib together) This week was the first week of monsoon season. Prior to this week it had been dry, so dry that it seemed like a new fire would pop up almost daily. With the new moisture in the air it did two things, it pushed the smoke out of the area, and it made this climb feel quite uncomfortable in the humidity. I felt steady up the climb, and faster than usual on the backside down. I added ice to my bandana at every aid station and just trotted along, watching storm clouds ahead. The rain hit when I was below tree line, which was really nice. Several folks got stuck up higher in hail and lightning. I just got cold and wet. When I reached the first crewed aid station at mile 32 I was cold and needed to change out of my wet shirt.
The race itself was ok, slower than I had hoped, but fine for about 50 miles. I did feel more adjusted to the elevation, by that I mean day to day sleep felt normal, everyday life felt fine-no shortness of breath, I had adjusted to the very dry air too. By the time the race rolled around we had been in CO for 2.5 months and my usual squeezing headaches had stopped occurring. I wouldn’t say I had completely adapted to the altitude, but I was no longer having the low grade sick feeling I usually get above 9,000ft….but then somewhere after midnight my stomach turned and I, for the first time ever, experienced bad-bad heart burn. I can’t say that I have gotten heart burn before, it took me a bit to hit that ah-ha moment of…”this is heart burn, we have to get an antacid to solve this problem.” For a bit I thought it was possibly some leftover inflammation from the virus we had. Then I had a short panic that I could have some heart inflammation. I rationalized that if I got some TUMS and it went away, it couldn’t be myocarditis. (Look, after 65 miles all above 9,000 ft and about 16 hours of running and hiking my brain can start concocting some interesting scenarios and the rational side of it needs to come in and talk the other non-rational side down from its panic-don’t judge.)
Sometime between midnight and 2am I went through my usual paces of: first wanting to drop, but not a remote aid station where I might be stuck for half a day. I bargained with myself that I would not make any rash decisions until I saw my crew, which wouldn’t be until sunrise, and there I could get a 10 min nap (glorious!) and reset my stomach. At Boss Lake, where we had hiked the dogs the month before, and I had run past on one of my 20 mile training runs I told myself I just needed to lay down for 5 minutes to stop the narcolepsy-head nodding- feeling like I was going to fall asleep on my feet. I didn’t pull out any extra gear, despite the cold temps, because I didn’t want to get too comfortable. I looked up at the sky for a second and gasped at the moonless night allowing for the milky to be visible. WOW! I registered that I had not seen the Milky Way since college in Tucson, where up at 7000ft on Mt Lemon you can see the universe! I almost immediately fell asleep after that realization and was probably out for 2-3 minutes before several more headlamps woke me up and we headed off into the darkness again. From there until sunrise I was semi awake and mostly nauseated and felt very slow. One time my pacer stopped to pee and I sat down for a second to eat something and kinda fell asleep for a moment again. whoops.
Finally we reached my crew, waiting at Monarch Pass. The tracker had gotten stuck overnight and said I was still back at mile 60, but thankfully my pacer had texted them to let them know we were moving, albeit slower than intended-so they were ready for me with a nice place to lay down. I asked for 10 min, they pulled out a little mattress and put a blanket over my head and I was instantaneously asleep. A funny aside, I was recently diagnosed with ADHD so now this makes much more sense, but when I was an infant/toddler and was still bottle feeding I would only eat if there was a blanket over my head…otherwise I was too interested in everything around me and would not focus on drinking milk. In this moment that memory came back to me and gave me a good chuckle. At minute 10, Elizabeth woke me up, and after a pause I got up, changed clothes, put my pack, sunblock, hat and sunglasses back on and headed back out onto the trail-with Drew.
Usually during a 100 mile race I pick pacers that I know I don’t need to give a second thought to or worry about; they have done the distance and terrain that I invite them along on and I don’t need to worry about them much at all. With Drew, maybe its partly because he is my spouse, maybe its because of recent health issues, but I had a bit of a underlying concern for him. Despite me having 70 miles on my legs and a stomach like a fun little coke and nerds experiment churning, I was thinking more about the 32 miles he was going to have to do with me. Up to this point he had run a few road marathons, but 3.5 hours and 26 miles is way different than 32 miles with lots of elevation. Somewhere along that section I took my foot off the gas and just decided to hike it all. He was great, he had put together a fun playlist and had “dad facts” and jokes at the ready to entertain me with.
Going into the final 50k, its hot and dusty and exposed, so we took advantage of every stream and river, dunking our hats and cooling ourselves. He was also great at setting a fast hiking pace, his long legs can easily set a 16-17 min mile pace, and he did just that, which gave me run/walk breaks and set the perfect pace to make sure I would finish before the cut off.
The race drops out of the woods, off of the trails onto dirt road with about 4-5 miles to go. I, despite having older “master’s legs,” I still have a young competitor’s brain and when we popped out on to the road I was ready to run. If we are being real, it was a 13 min mile pace, but I was smelling the barn. After a few min I realized Drew was still walking. I stopped and turned around and said…what’s up? Lets run! He finally let out that he was nauseated and had massive blisters on his heels and couldn’t run a step. We bargained and landed on a run walk-but ultimately settled on a walk. There is a long final climb up to the finish and I started to get nervous about not making the cut off. This is a glimpse into the addled ultra brain: having been awake now for 35 straight hours and been over 10,000 ft for much of the last day…there was definitely a lack of oxygen in my brain and we went back and forth about me running and him getting a ride to the finish. A friend started to come to get him, but then he decided he wanted to do the whole thing….so I ran most of the way up the hill…and then back down to him when he refused the ride. I apolgized for my ultra brain panic, and we walked it in across the line. He finished a whole 50k-his first- and I got to get paced all the way to the finish by my husband.
In the end I was happy he opted not to take the ride and I went back to finish the race with him. I was nearly an hour slower than in 2022, the last time I ran HiLO–but happier and more fulfilled this time around.



























